Kaden had his Winter Music Performance at school tonight. Originally it had been planned for December, however it was cancelled due to snow. He's quite animated! ---Video disclaimer: The video clip is very shaky, since we were sitting near the back and I had to put the camera on zoom. Plus in the middle I moved the camera to try and get a better shot, so it's a little crazy, but you get the idea.
Sunday, January 18, 2009
I've really been thinking about Heavenly Father's plan for me. When I was younger I only planned to have 2 children. And of course, I wanted one boy and one girl. Then I received my patriarchal blessing and it specifically talked about the choice spirits that would come into my home and how they would grow up to be honorable men and women. It also specifically said the words, "in mortality." At that point, I can remember thinking, "but I only wanted two - this means I have to have four." Men and women are both plural. So I guess that I figured in my head that I would eventually have 2 of each. We already had Kaden and then came Versii. So I figured this one would have to be a girl. I never thought that I would ever have 3 boys. I imagine now that this means I will end up having 5 children some day. Having that many children is not something that I planned on, but Heavenly Father's plan for us is not always what we plan for ourselves.
When I found out I was pregnant with this baby, I felt like it wasn't the right time. In the back of my mind I did want another baby, I just never thought it would be now. I know that I've spent a lot of time complaining. I really do hate being pregnant. But I am happy for this baby. I'm one of those people who wants a baby, but I don't want to go through all work of actually bringing them into the world. Pregnancy is definitely one of life's trials for me. And thinking about how I'm going to sanely survive raising 3 boys is going to be another one of life's trials for me. "He never said it would be easy, He just said it would be worth it." Right?
And I have been thinking about why it is that some of us get pregnant when we don't want to be and others of us who desperately want children cannot get pregnant or lose their babies before they even get a chance to come into this world. Heavenly Father is the only one who knows the exact answer. I constantly have to be reminded that everything happens on His time, not ours. There's always a lesson to be learned. For some it's patience and for some it's understanding. The blessings in any case are always there, we just don't always realise them right away. Unfortunately, for me, I sometimes need reminders that Heavenly Father knows what's best for us, even if we don't know it ourselves. This baby right now, is part of His plan and although I don't know all of the reasons why, I know that this baby will bring many blessings into our home. So I'm going to resolve to be happy for what's to come.
Plus I suppose that we were sort of destined to have 3 boys. One of Josh's best friends has 3 boys and one of my best friends has 3 boys. What's funny is that each of our best friends last names our "Smith," both of them honeymooned, with their spouses, in Steamboat, Colorado, both of them live in Colorado and they each have 3 boys.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
We had our ultrasound today and we are having another boy. I can't say that I am completely thrilled with the news. I wanted to cry, but...I didn't. I'll spare you all the images of his gender. But I assure you that they are unmistakeable. There is no chance this baby will come out as a girl. ---Mom says that she figures this little boy needs to be in our home and that if I had been given a girl then this would have been our last child.--- Undoubtedly, this is a true statement.
The doctor said his measurements are right on schedule for my due date and he weighs about 12 ounces right now. I saw all 10 fingers and toes!
Josh and I are still in disagreement about boy names that we like, so I'm not sure what his name will be yet. We'll let you know.
Kaden is excited about having another baby brother. And Versii doesn't have a clue.